“Why do I love you? It’s kind of hard to explain….it has to deal with hormones and sciencey stuff but let’s not get into that….unless you want to ;] it’s like when you look at me my heart starts beating and the dopamine and norepinephrine in me start to go crazy..
Lol let’s get serious. I don’t know what it is exactly. It probably has to do with the fact that you don’t judge me by my actions and you know the real me. Or maybe it’s because I’ve grown use to having you around me and when you’re not there I feel the absence and I feel weird. Or maybe it’s because I can’t stay mad at you. I’ve honestly tried to be mad at you but when I open my box filled with the letters you have given me, I start to cry. Why? Why would I cry over some letters? Why do pencil marks and pieces of paper, from you, affect me so much? Why is it that when I read them all the anger I once felt because of you drifts away and suddenly I start to feel guilty for being mad at such a wonderful person?
I love you because I don’t deserve you. (I know it’s kind of weird to understand but allow me to explain)
I don’t deserve many of the friends I have. I’m mean, stubborn, and self-centered. A person like me doesn’t deserve to have a friend like you. So, yea I love you because Im not suppose to have you. You’re a really caring person and you take the time to figure out each and every little detail of a person. You know me better than I know myself sometimes but I can’t even say the same. So this is why I have come to believe that I don’t deserve you.
I cherish every little moment we share because I know that one day this will all come to an end. All the talks we have….All the laughs we share…. They will disappear. … And I feel as if I haven’t done my part in being a friend…..
I know this is hard to understand because my thoughts are all over the place and my reasoning is far from normal but yea that’s why I love you. I know I’ve been drifting apart recently but it’s because of problems I’ve been having and problems that I can’t explain. But maybe this is best. Maybe the less memories we make will help us both in the end.”
”—AWWWWWW!!!!! this was such a touching letter… i love it.. it was the best one i got… -sigh- i’m so going to miss her when we graduate. (via fantasydrmer)